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[Nov. 29th, 2009|01:04 am] |
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You have to learn to look at someone you truly adore through eyes that really aren't your own. It's as if a person has to become another person altogether to be able to take a hard look. Good people protect people they love even if that means pretending that everything is okay. When the posing and disappearing became a way of life, we'd take on this almost casual attitude in our searches. As if we were trying to convince ourselves it was not a bad thing..
Images that connects to you pop up time after time, like an old player that keeps causing the music records to jump. I may know, but i don't think i'll ever really know.
Goodnight! (: |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2009|06:12 pm] |
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Down on track once again! Feeling so refreshed yet tired @ the same time.. Trained down to Tiong Bahru to meet Boy & we have porridge buffet then caught "My Girlfriend Is An Agent" @ Cineleisure. Walked around before heading back.. No photos today caused i'm really too tired to take any. A super long and dreadful day @ work tomorrow :( Bye... |
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| Our land will dance again |
[Nov. 21st, 2009|10:27 am] |
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Went "The Plaza" to fetch boy and I'm so happy when i saw this familiar face walking towards me! I knew he enjoyed the trip back this time! I'm happy for him too!! Hee. So glad to be back in his arms again!!
 
You are this special :) |
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[Nov. 19th, 2009|12:05 am] |
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Yesterday i met Frieda @ Compass and we headed down to Coronation Plaza to meet Shie Ling. Had our lunch @ Lemon Chick then headed down to Shie Ling's house for K-BOX!!! Its been donkey years since i sang my hearts out and this feeling is GREAT and hmmm, relax... Haha. Guessed its been awhile i feel this way. Sang for 4 hours then headed down to Raffles Place and we dine in @ this newly open place, The Hand-Burger and i'm so satisfied with the foods there! After dinner, we went down Pegro to meet their friends, Trayson&Alvin before heading back home..
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Day 3...
I love you just the same, always.. |
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| In my thoughts, always.. |
[Nov. 16th, 2009|03:23 pm] |
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I was head-to-toe wet yesterday before service starts as it was so called a "celebation" for my last day (as full-timer) in SAGE! 6 months of attachment, 8 months of full-time and now, a part-timer.. Heart feels lighter now. No longer busy as a bee and slowlyyy adjusting and finding back those things that had lost...
So, today is the start of my 1 week holiday and i wake up @ 430am and took the first LRT and 530am train to Tiong Bahru to meet Dear for breakfast @ MAC. This boy was so full of nonsense as he didn't catch any sleep yesterday! Took a cab to "The Plaza" to send him off as he heading back to KL. Enjoy yourself! I love you! =)
Forever, i'm by your side... |
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| Swim us both to Safety |
[Nov. 14th, 2009|02:09 am] |
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Its been awhile i had a proper post but i guess no one is reading it anyway? Haha. Everyday is work, work and work. Happy yet sad, i gotten end this life-less life in 2 days time!!! :D Not completely, but at least, i could had a lil more space on my own now. I really don't know if i had make a right choice but wells.... i hope i do.
Many a times, i'm swept away by words that i'm unable to express out. Its like i'm trying to talk but nothing comes out or it seems like something is holding me back to speak. All i could do now is to pray that everything will be alright caused i knew it very well, something is so wrong but i'm doing my best to mend it back. reallyyy.. I tried all ways just to hold it back... I had did all i could. I really don't know what more can i do now. Felt so helpess. Every single day, i'm trying so hard not to think, trying to get rid of all this negative and ugly thoughts. Trying to stay positive, trying to find back the sunshine smile.. Yes, trying to be happy all the time but i just couldn't. Haha sometime i wished i could take a deep breathe and let all the sadness goes away.
I don't know how long it will go,
but as long as it is, i will be watching every beat of your heart.
I Love You, even you are different in a thousand ways. But will always be the beauty in my eyes, always... |
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[Nov. 13th, 2009|12:45 am] |
All i need is a good night sleep...
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[Oct. 30th, 2009|01:00 am] |
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Happy 7 Monthsary!
How many people ask themselves, at the critical point in a love affair, if the fire of passion has died down simply because no one has been tending it, because no one has added the fuel necessary to keep it burning? How many people walk away from the smoking embers of their r/s, certain that the fire has died out, without noticing that the coals of love still contain enough heat to reignite into flames, if only they are given a chance? Respect the fire of passion, the fire of love. Understand that to stay alive, it needs to be honored, to be cared for, to be tended as diligently as you would tend a fire you had built in the wilderness to help keep you warm and safe from harm. Feed the fire of your love with kindness, communication, appreciation and gratitude, and it will always blaze strong and brightly for you.
Let our love be stronger than your hate or anger. Learn the wisdom of compromise, for it is better to bend a litte than to break...
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| A moment of thought... |
[Oct. 26th, 2009|03:08 pm] |
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Was browsing through facebook yesterday and found out something unpleasant. A primary school friend of mine, Yi Jin had just passed on. It was a sudden news. Life is just this fragile..
On the other note, its becoming insanely hard to stop thinking about what had occur over the past few days. I had no clue if the decision i made was right. It was like everything which used to fit so perfectly is no longer fitting now and how something that feels so right yet is so wrong at the same time. I know there's only so much that we can try, and desperately do we try. But do we end up only to look foolish?
The mind is clear, the heart was not constantly as heavy...
"Whatever happen, don't let go..."
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[Oct. 14th, 2009|12:16 am] |
I had the best time in my life on the 10 Oct to celebrate my 21st with all the people i love!!! Thou baby came late, i'm glad he came :D I will update more when i'm feeling less tired..
When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place... |
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[Sep. 13th, 2009|01:14 am] |
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Everyday is the same routine so sick of work felt like i'm drifting away from all those friends i used to hang out with.. Went to look at those photos and track back those memories when i had all the time in life to just lay back and enjoy myself. But now, a completely changed life, i couldn't have time to even reflect myself on what i did whether it was right on wrong. I know i couldn't find back those smile anymore.. The hardest thing is that i know i am not myself anymore. Its like being in somebody's body, putting on a fake smile pretening that everything is alright where the fact is that. i'm fighting my own tears every single day.. So stressed up over so many things. At times when i need to be strong, i am weak... I just wanna be who i am, be who i used to be... |
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[Sep. 6th, 2009|02:09 am] |
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I often ponder over the nature of true human sincerity, true transparency..... It is rare and difficult thing; and how much it depends on the person who is listening to us! There are those who pull down the barriers and make the way smooth; there are those who force the doors and enter our territory like invaders; there are those who barricade us in, shut us in upon ourselves, dig ditches and throw up walls ard us; there are those who set us out of tune and listen only to our false notes; there are those for whom we always remain strangers, speaking an unknown tongue. And when it is our turn to listen, which of these are we....??? |
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| Cheryl's 21st |
[Aug. 29th, 2009|02:35 am] |
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Cheryl early 21st was a blast!!! Glad to be there with her on her big day and i could simply feel the joy in her!! This 12 years, we see each other grow from a small girl to now, a lady.. She've changed so much from someone who love playing all sorts of rough games, playing soccer with the guys to now, a babe. A best friend who is never selfish who love & accept me for who i am, who is always there to listen and always telling me that everything will be alright even everything is going haywire, a friend who read me like a book and understand me more than i understand myself. I'm really lucky to have her as a best friend who will go that extra mile for me just to see me smile. I love her so much.. I wished her the best in her life and may love be with her, for always.
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[Aug. 27th, 2009|12:58 am] |
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How i always have to fight my own tears, when i'm needed to be strong(stronger).
I need to calm down..
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| Short day out |
[Aug. 24th, 2009|11:33 pm] |
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Dear&Me met at Vivo after his swim. Had our lunch then walk around searching for his shoe. Caught "Where got Ghost" in the late afternoon. Thanks dear for accompanying me thou its his 2nd time watching it D: Hee. Had our dinner @ Carls Junior and we stayed there for quite awhile. Talk alot. After dinner, walked around then went up to the roof top before gg back home.
The sky is grey without you,
cause you're the rainbow which colours my world,
and you're the sunshine which brightens my day.
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[Aug. 19th, 2009|12:51 am] |
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Supper @ "The Makan Place" with boy today and we had egg prata, pattaya & maggie goreng (I still prefer the one @ KL!) The taste is totally different compared to ours. Haha. One week of freedom just flew like a wink of eye and the same route repeats again! My god! Its getting late, time to get a good rest. Goodnight.
Time weighs down on you like an old ambiguous dream. You keep on moving, trying to slip through it. But even if you go to the ends of the earth, you won't be able to escape it. Still, you have to go there---to the edge of the world. There's something you can't do unless you get there.
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[Aug. 16th, 2009|09:02 pm] |
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Early morning, Dad&Mum drove me down to meet up with dear and we took a 5hr coach to Holiday Villa! His Mum is already there waiting for us and dear is so eager to drive so he drove us back home to unpack our stuffs and we had light lunch which his Mum had prepared for us. After that, we headed out to get some important stuffs done and time passes so fast and its already evening time so we went back to fetch his dad&aunt before heading out nearby to have ba kuh teh! I swear theirs is so much better compared to sg!! After dinner, dear bring me walk around his place and we went to this shopping mall to have ice-cream @ Baskins Robbins before heading back home and chit-chatted with his parents before heading out again to meet his friends (Jon, Tiong Jun & Huiling) @ A&W! I had been dying to eat A&W since sg no longer selling it donkey years back! Haha. Had their curly fries, waffle and root beer!
( You made it special for me.. )
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[Aug. 3rd, 2009|12:15 am] |
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Many a times, i questioned myself over the same thing yet i still couldn't figure out what's went wrong. Maybe it was just me. Sighs. This feeling inside i couldn't express. The more i think, the more complicated it seems to be. I yearned for those carefee life back then with nothing to worry & stress about. But its the process of growing up, isn't it so? Been trapped alot of times, sometime i simply felt like giving up.. Losing the interest of many things and everyday beside work, its still work. Tell me when will this stops? Its like a nightmare that never fails to haunt me. I'm really tired. Really tired of putting a fake smile and a mask pretending i'm alright, i'm strong... I'm just too tired. Please bring me back to who i used to be... |
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